June 17, 2013 by Zuri
I had a bad dream last night. My first back-to-school related bad dream. I showed up for a science lecture and got a good seat, when I realized I wasn’t wearing my glasses. The teacher came in, real mean looking, and we had to sign in up front. I went to sign in, and found out it was a form I was supposed to print out and bring in, but I don’t have a working printer right now. In the end, it was the wrong class anyways. I hate dreams like that.
I’m also doing a lot of examination on the clothes I wear. I’ve had a lot of problems with the issue of either presenting as male, or just looking like a butch lesbian. I don’t want to be stuck with the feminine identity of looking like a lesbian (since I’m not a lesbian, I’m transgender), but trying to find clothes that fit and “work” with me is proving difficult. I’m kind of tired of the “jeans, tshirt, and button down” look. It’s boring. I’m also not keen on the “striped polo” look or the “sweater vest” look either. They’re so… cliche? I’ve been considering a button down vest or waistcoat with a shirt and a nice flashy silk tie. Maybe. I’m not entirely sure yet.
I hate clothes shopping. Especially for things like men’s dress clothes. I don’t like the idea of someone taking my measurements. It’s awkward. I’ve cried in dressing rooms. But I looooooove neckties! Always have! I don’t want my dress to be boring. I’ll have to keep an eye out for vests and ties that I fall in love with. And I guess that means I’ll also have to get measured for shirts. Sigh.
Meat. I’m slowly growing a distaste for the stuff. I’m reconsidering a voyage into some kind of vegetarianism. I have constant cravings for fresh natural foods, fruits and veggies! Meat is just so… heavy. I eat it, and I feel icky. I just had a turkey sammich with cheese, and I could barely finish it. Just one sandwich! Last night I couldn’t finish my pork chop. Sure, it was a HUGE pork chop, but I had trouble swallowing it. It’s just not working out for me. The drawback is that living with other people (and not being the primary cook in the apartment) I end up compromising my own wants for the sake of everyone else’s dietary cravings. I really want to stand up for my own wants/needs in this case. I think it’s time to sit down and have a little talk. I can live without meat. Well, most meat. Seafood is a toughie. I’ll really miss seafood. Looks like learning to make vegetarian sushi is going to be high on my list!