March 14, 2014 by Zuri
Today I was searching ye olde Internet for quick vegetarian breakfast ideas. I like looking for recipes and things on blogs, rather than on the big recipe sites, because it adds a more personal touch, and you’re more likely to get a decent review of the recipe.
The only bummer is stumbling on those people that I’m really jealous of – the fitness buffs. Runners, especially. Lots of posts about all their successes, it gets a little discouraging at times. I can barely lift 15lbs, and here are people running half marathons! I wish I could run, I wish I could find running interesting in more than an academic sense. In all honesty I find running – and by extension, walking – to be incredibly dull. I wish I could be like them and find some enjoyment in it. I wonder what kind of person I would be if instead of partaking in other hobbies I’ve had in my younger years, I’d taken up running instead?
I’m more encouraged that I’ve finally started hitting the gym – as much of a gym as I’m a member of – but I think I’ve overdone it rather early on, as my arms (near the inside crease of my elbows) are extremely sore and stiff. I tried doing some yoga and stretching today to try and loosen things up, and it helped for a little while, but it’s all stiff again.
I get discouraged when I see fit people, and worry that I don’t have the dedication, the drive or the ability to reach my fitness goals. I get small tastes of encouragement when I do go to the gym, and the time flies by. I have my concerns though. I don’t know if I can do what I’m aiming to do – which is to lose 41 lbs. The goal seems unattainable. It’s been 21 years since I’ve been that size, and maybe my body is set in it’s ways? I don’t know.
I know what I want to do. I’m taking the steps necessary to do them. In the end, however, I worry if my efforts just aren’t good enough?