March 28, 2014 by Zuri
I’ve had a really bad low period lately. Lots of things have been going wrong with school, and my bipolar depression is suffering for it. I have no motivation to do anything, even to get myself out of this funk. I finally got my ass up and went to the gym for the first time since Spring Break, and it felt pretty good! I couldn’t keep my eyes off this one woman who was working with the dumbbells – she had such well-developed arms and back, I was pretty jealous. I wonder if I can ever reach that point? It seems so far away. It’s hard to stay motivated when depression rears it’s ugly head. I don’t want to eat, I don’t want to work out, I don’t want to play games or do homework, I really don’t want to do anything. It’s tough to deal with.
I went to the dentist this week. Need about $3800 worth of work done. Sigh. First step is deep cleaning, which will take two visits and cost about $400. *flail*
So yeah, I could really use some good news right now. If you’ve got some, feel free to leave it in the comments below – I’d love to see it! Be well.